Post by NATHANAEL ANTOINE CLEMENCE on Oct 2, 2014 15:19:34 GMT 8
Look here, what Do you see? Are You Looking Forward to Get Tangle Up in Me? FULL NAME Nathanael Antoine Clemence AGE & BIRTHDAY Twenty-two born 10-Aug-2002 OCCUPATION Ilvermorny alumnus, Daily Prophet Photographer, formerly private contractor (assassin for hire). BLOOD STATUS Pure-blood. FACE CLAIM Danny Worsnop. WAND TYPE Twelve and a half inch, dragon heartstrings, hazel, sturdy. PATRONUS Non-corporeal due to memory impairment, formerly a mountain lion. PETS Lucie, a corgi though since his hospitalization in December 2022 Lucie has been in the care of one of his friend (and ex), Alise. ABILITIES Nathanael is, or well was extremely skilled in non-verbal magic and wandless magic, learning both throughout his school years at Ilvermorny under the instruction of an elder cousin and his own father. Both non-verbal and wandless magic were not easy skills for Nathanael to master but once he figured it out his skills in both blossomed and it became like second nature to do magic with out a wand or a word. But in December of 2022 Nathanael suffered extreme magical damage to his memories which impaired his ability to control his magic, with or with out a wand. Because of the damage he suffered Nathanael has had to re-learn his control over his emotions [emotions can have a powerful effect on one's magical ability as they can hinder or even aid in the effectiveness of charms and spells], as his emotional outbursts have proven to be potential danger to himself and those around him due to unintentional magic - in a sense it is as if he is a child who cannot control his emotionally tied magic - only his emotions are deeper and all the more dangerous and this so is the magic that is tied to them in these outbursts. As Nathanael has finally started to recover from the incident in 2022 (as he is finally receiving proper care) he is slowly and surely working to regain his control over his skills, reducing the incidents when magic that is heavily based on emotional influence occurs. It is a long process but Nathanael is determined to regain his control and return to the life he used to live. Tell me who you are, I'm sure you're some kind of superstar. Free Style seven important days to nathanael. 20 July 2006 The day Gus was born was the day that I learned just what it was like to love someone who wasn't myself. For the few short years before Gus was in my life, it was all about me. Sure I loved my mother and father but, that was because they spoiled me and gave me anything I wanted. It was still all about me. I didn't really understand what they had meant when they told me I was going to be a big brother, or just how mother had a baby in her belly - actually I don't think I even really knew what a baby was just that my mother had obviously eaten one. But then Gus was born, and mother held me in her lap and father put this tiny little pink blob in my arms...and that was it, I didn't want anything to ever hurt my little blob. 29 July 2011 This was the first day I met that bastard - Le Tourneau. Even back then I didn't like him. I didn't like that he was the one my parents agreed to marry Gus too. Well no, they sold her to him - or his family. Even back then though, I knew I was going to do everything I could to protect Gus from him. I knew I wanted her to be with someone better. Its not like I knew just what sort of guy Le Tourneau was, I just knew he wasn't the sort of guy I wanted my sister to marry. Pureblood or not. I guess this was the first time I started to question just how much family duty mattered. maybe it was because she was still so innocent, that she didn't even know what our parents had done - what ever it was that was the day I knew I was going to find a way to change it. 1 September 2013 They always say you're going to meet your best friend in school, I doubted this was true. But then I met Liam. Well no, this wasn't the first time I met Liam but this was that I actually started to think that maybe - just maybe - I could be friends with the douche. See I was having it out with Le Tourneau again, never liked him - never. And things started to get rough - that's where Liam comes in. Little ass starts going at both of us, doesn't even try and pick sides just starts swinging at anything that moved. When it all was over the three of us were waiting for the dean to sort us out. Le Tourneau went in first leaving me and Liam to ourselves. Two boys black, blue, and bloodied up. I told Liam then and there he needed to pick if he was going to side with me or that shit head Le Tourneau. Not sure how I swayed him to my side - maybe he just needed a best friend as badly as I did. Or maybe there's just something about beating each other up that says 'that guy was meant to be my brother', what ever the case I knew then that there was never going to be another Liam in my life. 3 December 2017 They say the world stops when you meet the love of your life. I thought the world stopped when I met her, Alise. I was fifteen and she was hardly the first pretty girl I'd seen - but there was something different about her. I mean there is always something different about every girl...well no that's not true a lot of girls are the same, its what can make them so boring. But Alise wasn't boring. Maybe it was the fact she was set on ignoring me, she claimed she could see right through me and knew exactly what I was and she wanted no part of it or me. I'd never taken a turn down as hard as I took her's. Guess that's why I decided that I wasn't going to stop until she was mine...except...she never was mine, not really... 15 December 2022 This day ruined me. I know that when I die, and I meet my fate...it'll be this day I relive over and over and over. I still struggle to remember it clearly - Le Tourneau did a number on my memories, that's what landed me in St. Margaret's where him and my dad made sure the healers were paid well to make sure my head stayed as messed up as possible so that I'd never see the walls again. I thought my guilt of failing Gus was what was driving me further and further into madness you see, figured I deserved it too - after all what sort of brother was I for not protecting her as I needed to, what sort of brother was I for letting her die? Not to mention Liam...fuck, seeing him after all that...seeing him when I knew...when I knew just how he felt about Gus. Yeah I was positive St. Margaret's was going to be the last place I ever saw...and I knew its what I deserved. I wasn't even allowed to go to the funeral, I wasn't mental stable enough for it they said - I figured my parents just felt I was a shame of a human being for letting her die, after all what sort of sick bastards hold a fake funeral for their daughter when they know damn well she is alive. The same ones who were willing to let their son drive himself insane thinking he failed the only person he was willing to die for. 5 July 2024 I didn't believe him when he told me Le Tourneau was dead, or my father for that matter. I honestly had no idea why Liam thought St. Mungo's was going to be any better than St. Margaret's, after all I was deemed broken - so broken that I was never getting out. Even I knew I was getting worse, not better. But that's the funny thing about being a ward - you don't get any damn say in what people do. I need to thank the idiot though because it didn't take long to see the change was exactly what I needed - and no it wasn't some miracle caused by the change in the scenery or anything dumb like that. Turned out Le Tourneau and my father had a deal with my healers, keep their banks filled so long as they made sure I was never going to find my way out of the hospital. Its funny what some men will do for money....but with the proper care it all started to come back to me, slowly. You'd think I'd be happy to realize half the shit I remembered wasn't right but I wasn't, I had so many jumbled memories in my mind I didn't know what was true and what wasn't - I lashed out a lot and well...I needed to see with my own eyes. 20 July 2024 This was the day I actually learned why Liam had me transferred to St. Mungo's - it was all starting to come together. Le Tourneau had set it all up, him and my dad had been in together for longer than I had realized and Gus was his golden goose. I didn't want to believe it at first - that she could still be alive. No I couldn't take that loss again. So when he brought her...and I saw her standing there - my little Gus...it was almost too much. I think actually kissed Liam on the mouth - I knew what he had done, he did what I had ought to have done years ago...but it didn't matter because the only thing that mattered was the fact that my baby sister was still alive and I was never going to let anyone or anything ever hurt her again. six firsts in the life of nathanael. the first time nathanael learned what his family truly was Growing up my father had always called himself a bounty hunter. He told me our family caught the bad wizards in the world and brought them to justice. It wasn't until I was six that I learned that it was men with money who decided just who the bad wizards in the world were. Bounty hunters my ass. My dad eventually explained the truth of the matter, that he was a wand who would sell out to the highest bidder and I was going to follow in his footsteps. Maybe I should have been upset but I guess I was young enough that all I could think of was the epic fights I would get to be a part of...so it didn't ever really bother me, I just knew from a young age that there wasn't such thing as good and bad people there was just those with money, those with out and those with the money were always willing to pay to get rid of anyone that crossed them. the first time nathanael met liam ifinoh When I first met Liam he was one of the prospects for suitors for Gus. I hated all of the guys at that party, just knowing that one of them was going to be the one who would marry my sweet little sister made my blood boil. I didn't really understand way - its not like I actually was thinking about if it was fair or not then, after all it was just what purebloods did. Maybe not exactly the way that my family did - selling her contract to the highest bidder, but it was common. You arrange a marriage to keep your line pure. Still when I met Liam he instantly thought he was better than me. I hated that. I guess lucky for him I hated Le Tourneau more. the first time nathanael kissed a girl I'd told Liam I had kissed a girl long before I actually had. I think I told him I kissed a girl when I was six, I mean I had but it doesn't really count - you know? It wasn't a real kiss. So when I found myself at age 11 in a broom cupboard with a 13-year-old I found myself full of nerves. I had always had big talk of how great of a kisser I was and how I made all the girls fall in love with me but I really had no idea what I was doing. Needless to say it was easy for the girl to realize I didn't exactly know what I was doing so I found myself in a crash course. She was nice enough to keep my secret - maybe she just took some enjoyment in knowing that she was the first for me. Or maybe she was just nice I really didn't care, all I knew was that she was the first of many girls I was going to be kissing in my life. the first time nathanael realized his sister was in love The four of us had snuck off to this muggle theater to see some dumb movie, some remake of something that was made in the '80. It wasn't like I really cared but Liam insisted. I never really paid much attention two of them when the lights went down, I mean I had Alise there with me so why would I? But that time I did. I looked over and realize that Gus didn't watch the movies, she watched Liam. Those big eyes of her's just fixed on him as if he was the stars in the night sky or something and she was transfixed. She clung to him as if he was her anchor or something. It was horrible but I knew - my sister was in love with Liam. It was his fault of course. I blamed him for kissing her when she had still been so young, puppy love - a stupid crush. I could call it what I wanted but deep down I was having a much hard time denying that I knew what Gus wanted - and it was not Le Tourneau. It was Liam. the first time nathanael had his heart broken You could say it was my own fault. She does. Everyone does actually. It was a misunderstanding - a few underage drinks too many, high strung emotions, and well a general feeling of c'est la vie. I mean maybe it was my fault - its not like I had ever let someone that close to me before. I didn't really believe that it was over at first, we'd had our slipts before but she always came back. This time was different though. Days went back, and then weeks and then...well she found someone else. That was when it really hurt. Seeing him walking around with my girl...I never wanted to feel that again. Ever. the first time nathanael realized his best friend was in love I didn't want to accept that my best friend was in love with my little sister. Liam was a bastard, he didn't care about anyone but himself. He wasn't the sort of guy anyone would want to be in love with their sister. So yeah, I ignored the sign for years. But as the years went on it got harder to deny that Liam didn't just mess around with my sister to piss me off - he did it because he couldn't help himself. It should have been obvious when he would blow off his sure deals to do thing with Gus instead but it wasn't until her birthday when he gave her that dumb custom pinao that I knew I had a problem. Liam wasn't the sort to give a girl anymore than he had to, to get what he wanted. I was finally able to see that when it came to Gus...well it was something different. And I hated it. five letter nathanael sent. Monsieur Le Tourneau, My father tells me that I need to make more of an effort to better my relationship with you, this letter is to inform you that I have no intention of doing so. I do not like you, I never have liked you, and I never will like you. You smell of rotten cheese and dog piss. My hope is that you will fall into a lake and drown perhaps than you would actually be of some use as you would feed the fish (except your already rotten flesh might kill them which would be a shame). This is also your first and last warning, if you ever touch Augustine, no if you ever hurt her in anyway I will make sure you never see the light of day again. Contract or not she is my sister and I will not tolerate you mistreating her in anyway. (Yes she did tell me how you insulted her piano playing and yes you are going to pay for telling her that she was horrid. Augustine is more talented than you could ever hope to be crétin.) Now, as I realize we both will be attending school together in a matter of weeks I am giving you this option to make the wise choice of never showing your face at Ilvermorny and saving yourself the trouble of finding yourself face down in the dirt like a little priss because if you go I will make sure this happens. Find another school, stay away from my sister or face the consequences. Va te faire enculer, N.A. Clemence Fils de Pute, If I catch you anywhere near my house or Gus again I am going to destroy you. I don't want to catch you anywhere near her, in fact don't even look at her. Better yet don't even think about her. I'm not joking Liam, I will kill you. I don't know what made you think it was okay to kiss MY little sister but the next time I see you Liam you're dead, you got that? Dead. You're dead, Nate Alise, Meet me at the clock tower at a quarter past midnight. It'll be worth it, I promise. Just trust me this time okay? Just this once Alise, after tonight well if you want you can go right back to ignoring me. (You won't but hey if you want to think that I can't change your mind go right ahead because tonight babe I am going to prove you wrong) Just you wait and see, Nathanael Chérie, Please Alise, it was an accident. I was drunk, we were fighting, she was there. It meant nothing Alise, nothing! You know I love you so please - I didn't mean for it to happen it just happened. It meant nothing! You are the only one that means anything to me, you know that so please, just hear me out. We can get through this you just have to listen to me. An hour, that's all I'm asking just sit down and talk with me for an hour. We're stronger than this Alise, you have to believe that. You have to. I'm sorry, Your Idiot Liam, I didn't mean it... I'm going crazy here. I can feel it. Its like nails on a chalkboard scratching on mind... Men weren't meant to live like this. I miss her Liam...no, that doesn't even begin to cover it. I'm a failure......I don't deserve to live. Is this even living though? I didn't mean it, what I said to you - I still need you Liam, you're all I have left. Please come back, Nate four things nathanel never meant to say. "You can't be scared Gus." 30 July 2011 I was just trying to comfort her but - no she had every reason to be scared. I can't count how many times I have told her that she couldn't be scared when what I really should have told her was that there was so much more in life she ought to be scared of. "Love isn't real Gus - you don't get a choice in life." 27 July 2019 ...I don't know why I told her that. Maybe it was because I was scared for her, scared that she might do something stupid that would get her....killed. She needed to think that Seb was her only choice, her only one. I hated Liam for what he did, for messing with her head like that - there was so much she didn't know about the world and he was making it hard to keep it that way. I was only trying to protect her. "Well I never really loved you anyways." 1 Dec 2022 Biggest lie I have ever told. I was mad though. I knew I had messed up but she didn't want to hear it. I knew I had hurt her but she needed to listen to me, she needed to hear I was sorry. But Alise said she couldn't listen anymore, it was too much - I was too much. So I said the one thing I thought could hurt her....even though I knew I shouldn't have. "Get out Liam! I don't need you! I've never needed you! I never want to see you again!" 22 Jan 2023 I didn't mean it. I was just so mad at myself for what happened. I blamed myself for Gus' death and...I knew Liam loved her, I knew I had ruined what ever messed up future he had thought he could have had with my sister. It hurt to see Liam, I knew he needed me but...I knew I was the reason he was in so much pain. I couldn't take it and so I said what I said...I never meant it though - I needed him just as much as he needed me and I really wish I could take them back. three people nathanael has loved. AUGUSTINE 'GUS' CLEMENCE, THE SISTER "When my parents told me I was going to be a big brother I can't honestly say I was happy about it, I mean I was three - four, at the time and was quite fond of being an only child. I'd told my mother countless times I didn't want a baby brother, not once did they put the idea in my head that the damn thing could have very well been a girl! Not sure I even really knew you could have a sister back then, but I was four. Anyways, it wasn't until Gus actually was born that the idea of her grew on me. She was a lot cuter than I had imagined babies to be so that might have helped, those dark brown eyes and her soft little blonde curls, and that damn smile - even as a bay she had this way of smiling... Point is though - Gus is my baby sister, and as she grew up - as we grew up well, I knew I wanted to try and protect her from all the bad there is in the world. Even as a kid I tried to do that. I hated when I wold see her upset, hurt, anything like that. She would get this look that just could break my heart and I hate it, I never want to see her like that. Its sad in some ways because, Mom and Dad...they never looked out for Gus like I did. To Dad she was just some bartering tool, another way to make some money. He never cared if she was happy. I'm the only one who looked out for her happiness....even if I'm not happy about who she found it with, I'd be no better than my dad if I told her she couldn't make her own choices. I'll still kill anyone who hurts her though - even if they are my best friend." LIAM IFINOH, THE TERROR TWIN "Its funny in some ways, I've known Liam for eleven years and for what ever reasons I still love the guy. A fucking mystery. Maybe I'm sentimental or something dumb like that - whatever it is, he grew on me. Liam really is the brother I never had. I'd say older brother but half the time I forget that he is nearly a year older than me because he still acts like he is seven - and that's being generous! Really though, Liam has always been the one that was there, looking out for me, looking out for Gus - maybe looking out for Gus a bit too much....Still not okay with it... But Liam's more than my best friend, I mean don't get me wrong I love the guy but I've also punched his face till he looked like a bloodied up plumb, but in the end we always work it out. Some how. Liam is why I'm here today though, why I am finally getting back to who I was - who I am..who I should be? Its because of him, and if it weren't for Liam...I wouldn't be able to have Gus back...So yeah, he's more than just my best friend, he is my brother, my terror twin, and I love him to death. And of course, I still want to kill him - if Gus wasn't so damn hung up on him..." ALISE, THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY "I don't often talk about her...not anymore. I guess there is always one, and she was it. I mean - not that I can't find someone else, trust me I have no trouble with that. But, they aren't Alise. Few could put up with me like Alise could, I mean she still does...sort of in that 'I feel sorry for what happened to you' sort of away. But before everything happened...she changed a lot of things for me, made me actually want to be a better person. Made me want to be someone who she could be happy to love, not just the guy that hurt her all the time...and oh did I hurt her... Maybe things could have been different, but when we ended things - well that was it. There was no more second chances, not that time. She couldn't do it anymore. She couldn't handle me anymore. I say its fine. I've moved on. I have....I think." two sides of nathanael. THE PARIAH Its no secret that I'm not the best person in the world. Not everyone knows just what my sins amount to by some do, and some can't handle it. I'm a monster, a murder, a soulless being that is damned to hell. It doesn't matter if I was the nicest guy on the planet because I have these blinding flaws that make it impossible to look past who I was. So I stopped trying to be nice, I did what I wanted, who I wanted and I didn't care who it pissed off. THE VICTIM After the accident people started to pity me - I hate being pitied. Its like they could suddenly turn a blind eye to most my flaws, all they saw was someone who had lost everyone, someone who needed compassion. Even when I would lash out in anger someone was willing to make an excuse for me - 'he lost his sister he has all the reason to be mad at the world' - heard that one a lot. It was the first time I could ever let myself be weak and...well it was strange to get comfort but I liked it a little. I guess what it really comes down to is you either see the best of me, or the worst. one goal nathanael has in life. Returning to the man he used to be. It wasn't easy living the past year and a half thinking he had been unable to protect his sister from the worst fate life could throw at her - death. He truly believe that she was dead and still sometimes finds his mind slipping into the lingering memories that haven't healed even though he is finally receiving the proper care he needs. It seems nearly impossible that he is ever going to be able to return to being the man he was, return to the life he had been trained to live since his childhood. He knows that he wasn't a good man, that what he did was wrong on many levels - but then again many of the men he had been hired to kill had done wrong themselves. Someone has to play the messy roles in life, he just doesn't think he needs to feel too terrible about actually having enjoyed being one of those men. Let's us all just be friend, And together we can start a new trend. ALIAS: Bonzi AGE: 27 DISCOVERY: Paige ♥ and I basically live here CHARACTERS: ALEKSI NIKITA IVANKOV, ALTAIR MAE POYNTER, AMERY CATHAL CAMBELL, AMITY CATHLEEN PARRIS, ANTOINE MARQUEZ LETOURNEAU, APOLLO JAMES BORDEN, AUBREY CAMILLA SCIARRA, AUGUSTINE VENIA IFINOH, AXEL TOBIAS MEAGHER, BAILEY IVO MCCONNELL, BEATRICE ADELAIDE DURSLEY, BRYONY CATE BUCHANAN, CASPIAN DMITRI CROSSHEART, DANTE APOSTOLOS CARPETHOS, ELEANOR CORDELIA WORRALL, EMILLA PÄIVÄ AALTO, EVIN MIKHAIL GREKOV, GERONE CARLOTTA CARPETHOS, GIDGET ANABEL HALE, ICARUS ALAWN LLEWELLYN, IMOGEN NIAMH MERRITT, IRINKA AKSINYA XANTHOPOULOS, ISAAC RYDER MCAVOY-GREYBACK, JACOB SAMUEL BLENKINSOP, JACQUELINE AURORA TALBOTT, LACHLAN WALLACE MONTGOMERY, LENNOX ELASIS BRYNJAR WILKOŁAK, NATHANAEL ANTOINE CLEMENCE, NYX DIONE MOON, OROCHI TACHIBANA, PASCAL ARISTIDE BORGIA, PAXTON POLARIS PRESCOTT, PHINEAS AJAX PAKARINEN, ROBERT SHAY WAGTAIL-HOLDEN, TAWNEE RAE ADDAMS, TIBERIUS DEAN THREASHER, YŪKI SATŌ NOTES: ADMIN MARIE this one is for you ♥ made by paige |
p.s Liam is not okay with app.
